Had to upgrade my WordPress plan to get the plugin for my Mailerlite form to be on here. I watched countless videos on how to do it without the plugin but none of the coding was working. I kind of designed the form in a hurry but it came out alright. It looks very fantasy to me. For a writer, there’s a lot that is important to be seen, heard, and ultimately successful. I’ve struggled going back and forth with what works and what doesn’t. For instance, I read a story about an indie author who made 6 figures, then 7 figures, and they didn’t have a newsletter. Then there’s stories about people who only use social media and make a ton of money. The problem with any of these supposed success stories is that I, you, and your neighbor, and the person across the world doesn’t know if it’s true. If the stories are true, then friggin great. Wish I could be that lucky and successful. But I prefer honesty. Especially in this business of writing. I’d rather you tell me that I write shit then try to tell me what sounded good. If you have to think that hard on what you liked about one of my books, then you didn’t like it. My author-friends are falling into this category as well. Which is sad. I thought I had found a kinship–an understanding–a community to lean on for support and vice versa. I guess it’s an old age lesson: they who become successful forget where they started from. Let me clarify, not all of my author-friends are like this, but the ones who’ve achieved A LOT of success don’t seem as invested in the community of writers who aren’t successful anymore. It’s like having that person in your life who you thought was your best friend because they were always there for you, and whatnot. Then one day, they strike it rich, and then POOF they are gone from your life. Now you’re boring because you can’t possibly understand their lifestyle now. You don’t fit in. That’s how I’m feeling right now with author-friends who wanted to be helpful and supportive, then left me on the boat in the middle of the river while they scale the mountain.
Would I be the same way if I were that successful? I’m an anti-social person, so people probably think I’m purposely aloof and cold, but I like being in my own little space. It doesn’t bother me to sit in front of my computer or go outside in my yard. I don’t crave random conversation when I leave my house. I like book people because books interest me. Or whatever interest me I’ll talk about. Otherwise, I politely smile and stay silent. I’m getting off topic. I have my newsletter sign up form so people can subscribe and get all the exclusive bonus stuff authors aren’t meant to spill in normal settings. This blog is just a way to let loose the feelings of depression, insanity, and happy moments. I’m sure a psychiatrist would have a field day with me.
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